This is harder than I thought it was going to be. And I don't want to go to people because I don't want to seem like the baby I feel like I am. But... I don't know who to turn to. I just hope I hear from Vincent soon. I haven't felt this lonely since I moved back from Thailand. At least then I went to lame chat rooms online. Haha. But now I don't... and I realize how hard it is to find a friend to talk to. Someone that has the time for me. Someone that I won't be a bother too. ...God I miss Vince so much can't I just like... go into a coma and wake up in 6 weeks when this is all over?

Dear Xanga, 

I'm in a new house. It's only 3 minutes away from our old house... but we're now paying monthly towards buying this house instead of renting like we were with our old one. This new house is great :) It's 3 story, with short stairs though. Like 5 stairs between each floor. I like it. My room is downstairs, as is the living room. My room's like halfway underground, haha. Which is cool. One thing that's great about this new house is there's so much space. In our old house it was one story and you couldn't really go anywhere to get "alone" time. But here...there's SO many places you can go for that. It's great. We even have a screen porch on our back porch. Kit Kat, especially, loves that. 

I also like this neighborhood. It's much much smaller, and it seems like everyone knows everyone. It's much more like a neighborhood that my family and I used to live in when I was younger. It's great for the boys, they're already making more friends than they had at our other house. And we lived there for 2 years. It's funny though because right now we're the talk of the neighborhood. Everyone somehow seems to know our last name and oh my goodness we've gotten so many plates of cookies and muffins and loaves of bread. Haha. 

I really love this place though. And even though I'm eighteen, and I'm moving on with life, and I know I won't live in this place forever, I can see my family living here for a very long time. Which is great; we've all been looking for that. This house feels much more like "home", and I haven't felt that in a while. I sure didn't feel at home in our old house. 

But anyhow, on a new subject, today is the last day of august. In other words, tomorrow September begins. In other words, Vincent leaves in September. Yes, the month has finally come. But tomorrow will be good because instead of moping that it's finally September, I bought 2 tickets for me and Vincent to go White Water Rafting in North Carolina! Haha so that'll be a blast. I was trying to have it be a surprise, but Vincent guessed it because I had to make sure that day was free, and he was getting curious as to why I NEEDED him all day. Haha. Also, we had been talking about White Water Rafting for a while. It'll be so much fun :) Neither of us have done it before. I tried to get the most "adventurous" pack for 2 that there was. So instead of a scenic tour with guides and other groups of people on one big raft, we'll be on a smaller raft, just us and a guide (I think). It's called the half day duck tour. Haha. I'll write, when I get on here next, about how it all went. 

Ok. Well for now it's time for me to get out of my twister pj pants, and off the computer. Time to get dressed and start my day right. (Where's my coffee cup?!) Goodbye Xanga. Thank you for always listening :P Love, me.